welcome.

so, i'm trying this site out. no idea what it's really like, but I've seen quite a few people on here.
so we'll see I guess!

I have had so much boy drama lately, it's stupid.

I finally have realized that I'm so fed up with moping around waiting for a miracle from him. I don't have options. I yell at him for all the shit he's done to me, and what does he do? he agrees. then he feels bad. but he doesn't want love. he doesn't want a relationship. he doesn't want me. I've been his recycled girl for the past two years, and I've had enough. I need something real, and someONE that I know won't treat me like garbage.

I have also realized that I don't want to be with someone whose going to analyze every little thing I do, every minute of everyday. I don't want someone whose going to argue with me because of his analyzations. I also don't want someone whose going to creep my blogs every 10 or so minutes because he's worried I might be writing about him. guess what, big shot. I AM.

I'm also extremely frustrated with prom. finally I bought my tickets, so that's a checkmark off my worrying list. my following worries: dressing my date, getting there, and the prom party. my best friend, Mitch, and I are going together and he promised me we were going to go shopping for him today. but as per usual, he bailed on me. we don't have a limo or people to attend with, so hopefully mama C will let him borrow her car, and we can go. and to conclude, I think it's complete bullshit that stuck-up bitches in my school want to have "invite only" parties... grow up, we're graduating for fuck sakes. spread the love.

I don't know what to do about being unemployed either. even though having a job while I'm doing afternoon co-op would be tough, I really need one. my dad is now laid off and spends his days and nights on the computer playing poker, while my mom cleans around his feet - we can't afford to buy anything. I could hardly afford to attend prom. my nana's generously paying for my hair to get done, thankfully.

I also want a job to help save for college. since my funds have disappeared into thin air because of my sister, I need to help my parents save up. I'd also rather not have to leave town for school, because I'm such a home-body. I've decided I want to teach communications technology, and do photography as a second job. I hope I can figure this out within the next year.

this is just what's on my mind for now, I suppose.