moll, mark umbenhower <3>
I thought she was all, be yourself and respect yourself.
Your friend doesn't respect herself, and you're trying to be her

SO TRUE.

Shut up and let me go
This hurts, but I can't show
For the last time you had me in bits
Now shut up and let me go
For fear of leaving in regret
I changed this one when we first met
Now oh so easily your over me
Gone is love
It's me that ought to be moving on
You're not adorable
I was something unignorable.

happy mommy's day

I'm sitting here
I'm thinking back to a time when I was young
my memory is clear as day
I'm listening to the dishes clink
you were downstairsyou would sing songs of praise
and all the times we laughed with you
and all the times that you stayed true to us

now we'll say, I said I thank you
I'll always thank you
more than you would know
than I could ever show
and I love you I'll always love you
there's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
that you're beautiful forever
always, always and forever

you were my mom, you were my dad
the only thing I ever had was you, it's true
and even when the times got hard you were there
to let us know that we'd get through you showed me how to be a man
you taught me how to understand the things people do
you showed me how to love my god
you taught me that not everyone knows the truth

and I thank you
I'll always thank you
more than you would know
than I could ever show
and I love you
I'll always love you
there's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
that you will live forever

happy mother's day mom, I love you <3

watch your back.

I am really sick of hearing and seeing stupid, immature sluts trying to get with guys who are in a relationship and/or emotionally unavailable.

you know who you are.

first, I had to (and still have to) walk down my hallways for the past 3 years listening and watching to you act like child. I've heard so many disgusting stories about you. you is 16 almost 17 years old, and it's time to grow the fuck up.

secondly, I had to hear about you trying to break up one of the strongest relationships I've ever witnessed in my entire life. two people who are happily in love, never better, and you had to walk around school like you owned the fucking place telling people his girlfriend was "old news" and when he said he was at band practice, he was actually with you?

that really ticked me off.

thirdly, how dare you even try to start anything with me? you told me that if I wanted to talk, to come say it to your face... meanwhile, you're the one "arguing" with me over facebook. let's think about that for a minute, sweetie. let's see who the bigger person is.

you're jealous because the guy you have interest for loves me, and not you. he's my exboyfriend and you need to calm the fuck down and realize he doesn't want your scrawny ass.

last, and certainly not least:

you are TRYING to flirt with my best friend's boyfriend. they have been together for almost two years. do you really think you stand a chance?

back
the
fuck
off

that's all.

welcome.

so, i'm trying this site out. no idea what it's really like, but I've seen quite a few people on here.
so we'll see I guess!

I have had so much boy drama lately, it's stupid.

I finally have realized that I'm so fed up with moping around waiting for a miracle from him. I don't have options. I yell at him for all the shit he's done to me, and what does he do? he agrees. then he feels bad. but he doesn't want love. he doesn't want a relationship. he doesn't want me. I've been his recycled girl for the past two years, and I've had enough. I need something real, and someONE that I know won't treat me like garbage.

I have also realized that I don't want to be with someone whose going to analyze every little thing I do, every minute of everyday. I don't want someone whose going to argue with me because of his analyzations. I also don't want someone whose going to creep my blogs every 10 or so minutes because he's worried I might be writing about him. guess what, big shot. I AM.

I'm also extremely frustrated with prom. finally I bought my tickets, so that's a checkmark off my worrying list. my following worries: dressing my date, getting there, and the prom party. my best friend, Mitch, and I are going together and he promised me we were going to go shopping for him today. but as per usual, he bailed on me. we don't have a limo or people to attend with, so hopefully mama C will let him borrow her car, and we can go. and to conclude, I think it's complete bullshit that stuck-up bitches in my school want to have "invite only" parties... grow up, we're graduating for fuck sakes. spread the love.

I don't know what to do about being unemployed either. even though having a job while I'm doing afternoon co-op would be tough, I really need one. my dad is now laid off and spends his days and nights on the computer playing poker, while my mom cleans around his feet - we can't afford to buy anything. I could hardly afford to attend prom. my nana's generously paying for my hair to get done, thankfully.

I also want a job to help save for college. since my funds have disappeared into thin air because of my sister, I need to help my parents save up. I'd also rather not have to leave town for school, because I'm such a home-body. I've decided I want to teach communications technology, and do photography as a second job. I hope I can figure this out within the next year.

this is just what's on my mind for now, I suppose.